2002-05-06 - 11:41 p.m.
:*(
The way I feel right now is indescribable. My I.T. final went to hell. I really needed to do well on it coz a big chunk of my grade depends on it. But hell, it was just horrible.
I spent over eighteen hours studying for that thing. I didn't even feel TOO nervous before taking it because I know I studied, plus my cheat sheet kicked ass I thought. But then when I saw the questions, damn. I don't even remember seeing half the stuff there. Maybe it just didn't connect in my head, but I only missed one class all semester yet the material stilll seemed so unfamiliar. It was overly hard, and a lot of people in my class think so too.
Oh how I wanted to bawl my heart out after the test! I couldn't tho' coz I was talking to Paul, and I don't want people to see me cry.
It's really unfair how all of my knowledge on this subject, for which I studied like crazy, was tested with ten or so impossbible questions. Why couldn't they have asked normal questions? The sample exam was fair. Usually, they're harder than the real thing. But not in this case, I guess.
Paul told me that I shouldn't sweat it coz after all, it's only an exam. There are other things in my life that's more important. But then again, he's a genius so I'm not too sure if his advice on that particular issue counts.
I guess I could depend on the curve. But I just get this sinking feeling in my stomach that even with that, I still won't make it.
Hmm, raiding the ref seems such a good idea. Some cookies and milk maybe? Then some ice cream? Mmm, lovely. During normal days, I'd grimace at the thought of having those in one sitting. But such a stressful time like this, cookies, milk and ice cream would be a delight.
This entry must seem really down and boring. Seems that I couldn't be productive right now even with my writing. What can I say, it's the effect of finals that went bad. Damn them! Damn them to hell!
