2002-05-02 - 3:16 p.m.
Hey you guys, have you checked out my blog yet? Some emailed me and asked what a blog is. A blog is used by some as a diary, or a journal. But then I always think that if used for that purpose, then they should call it a diary or a journal, and not a 'blog', no? In the most literal sense, a blog comes from web-log, which is a log of websites that you find worthwhile. I would (I say would coz mine's fairly new) personally use it for that AND also commentaries on issues that catch my attention. Basically, it's where I'll write shorter entries that are NOT too personal, or emotion-oriented. These are of course, reserved for this journal.
Mann, is it really May 2 now? I'll be turning 20 in a month! Whhaaaa!! Anyway, it's Rutgers Fest tomorrow. Shouldn't I say Whee? It's the annual end-of-school-year event that my school holds that has attractions like a carnival and a concert. Reel Big Fish and Ludacris are headlining, so it should be pretty slammin'. Oh and yea, people get hammered. I'm still debating in my head if I should drink or not. The funky side of me wants to party like all hell broke lose. Yet the sensible side of me wants to hit the books to prepare for my Internet Technology final on Monday that counts for 55% of my grade. DAMN!
I had a bad experience with Rutgers Fest back in freshman year. Methodman and Redman were the ones performing then. Being the freshman that I was, I went to the concert together with practically my whole dorm having 3 shots of tequila beforehand. We somehow made it to the front, and people started crowd-surfing and all of a sudden my head got kicked by random feet above me three times. Tequila didn't bother me, but the feet hitting my head, oh boy! I hate being constricted, and I don't even like rap in the first place. So Pat and I went back to the dorm, drank some more, waited for our other friends to get back, and then drank some more. Now see, I'm not sure I want to do that tomorrow, though. Coz I'm supposed to have matured in the past 2 years. HA! I guess we just have to wait and see what I'll do.
On a more serious note..
I had a job interview today.
Err.. I don't quite know what to do with my life. It's all so complicated. Could I just be six years old again? Pretty please?
Here's the thing. Right now, I work part-time at a hospital that's 40 minutes to 1 hour away from where I will be living starting on June 1st. I applied to a bunch of jobs around here so that I wouldn't have to deal with a long-ish of a drive since I want to work more hours too.
Out of all the jobs and internships that I applied to, only one of them got back to me so far. This is the one I went to for an interview today. It's a hospital again, basically for the exact same position that I have now. The only difference is that this pays about 2 dollars less (an hour) than what I'm making AND this is only a summer job. The recruiter said that there's a chance that it goes on after the summer, but it's not definite.
You see, I'm kind of hesitant for many reasons.
1)I'm iffy on going back down in the salary bracket even if it's only 2 dollars, especially if the job description is exactly what I do. I mean I wouldn't mind IF it were a computer science related job or internship since that would give me valuable experience that I absolutely need for my major, you know. But it's NOT a c.s. job. Plus with the rent for the apartment and all, I will need every single dollar I can get.
2)I kind of want to move away from the hospital floor setting. I wouldn't mind working in a hospital still but I don't want to work on the floor where the patients are anymore. Figure, I WON'T be a nurse, nor a doctor, so I really don't need the stress from being around sick people. Seeing any old person reminds me of my grandfather who has passed on and I can't help but get depressed. Whenever someone's being ressucitated, I get a sick feeling in my tummy. Plus the stress you get from the nurses when it's very busy is just unbelievable. Although I'm lucky that all the nurses where I work at now are really sweet and motherly to me.
3)Since the job is only a summer position, then I'd be left with no job for next semester. What am I going to do then? Apply to another job? Too troublesome.
4)I would reaaally prefer to work in a C.S. related job, internship, or C.S. ANYTHING for that matter. I guess you can say that I'm desperate?
Now you see how these matters conflict? I need a job that pays well so I can support myself. Yet I wouldn't mind taking a C.S job that pays like crap in exchange for the experience that I will be getting. At this point I really don't know which of the two is more important. I guess it's ideal to find a C.S. internship where I can work full-time during the summer, part-time during next school year, AND pays well too. But hell, that's impossible to find.
Arggh. I will wait it out. I'm hoping that I get a call form the other places too. But I need them to call SOON.
I really should still feel lucky because so far, ONE called me back right? Some unfortunate ones out there don't even get that chance. If none of those other places call, then at least I have one prospect lined up.
In that case, beggars can't be choosers, I guess.
