2002-04-10 - 02:09 a.m.
I went to On the Border for dinner with my parents tonight. HA! In other circumstances, that wouldn't be much of a big deal right? But in my case, it IS. Why? Well it's because I didn't see them for 2 whole months and we haven't been in good terms (see Growing Pains entry).
Ever since I found an apartment, I've been putting the thought of having to tell my parents that I'm getting an apartment with other people at the back of my head. Some told me to just call and let them know through the phone. But I don't think that's right. As my sister said, no matter how wrong they are, I'm still their daughter and I have to do the right thing. I have to tell them personally, to their faces.
Tonight I did just that. They didn't even react. All they said was "How much?" And when I told them, they asked if financial aid was going to cover it. I said "Yes, some of it, but I'll get it in September. For this summer, I'm gonna have to work."
For the rest of the dinner, they just talked. Oh and my mom of course didn't fail to annoy me. She had the gall to brag about her new Kenneth Cole bag. I didn't know what to say. Just like when they had the money for her Dooney and Burke wallet and now for a Kenneth Cole bag. In the meantime their daughter here doesn't have money for books or any food for that matter. And she bragged too! Isn't that insult to injury? I was on the border of exploding and spilling out my beans to just tell them exactly how much stress, anxiety and pain they've been causing me. But I didn't want any confrontation. Part of me is just hoping that when I finally move out and become independent of them, everything will just eventually get better among us. But then again, the other part wants to tell them how crappy they are.
So that's it, I've informed them about my moving out. It's over and done with. I guess I should be glad becuase there were no questions asked. I also sounded very independent! And because of that, I'm very proud of myself not only because that's how I wanted to sound like, but also because that's what I'm aiming for myself to be.
